Saturday, January 02, 2010

ushering in 2010.!

happy new year peeps!!!!
too much things to update so i'll pic it out!


christmas eve celebration at office. so many gifts from body shop. hahaa!

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christmas with cousin love. love u girl. let's go hook up some guys. HAHA!

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party with SS!

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new year countdown with wai and friends!

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bday celebration with my SSSS girls. happy bday soppy and wai!!
love ya'll!

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happy weekends peeps!!! muackz!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

let loose.

not myself again.
been sleeping in wee hours these days.

drink drank drunk.
bottled myself with heavenly juices.
to keep myself occupied.

am still smiling on my brave front.
and broken water tap behind close doors.

earth ball's still rolling.
heart's still beating.

Friday, December 25, 2009

losing myself.

suiyan's losing herself again.
the uncontrollable emotions piling up.
zombied life. millions litre of tears.

wished there's a manual for me.
manual of picking back the broken pieces,
wished there's a huge hammer to knock me out.
to forego the memories.

life's been a mess.
gotta wrapped it up and throw away.

someone pls slapped the hell out of me.
pls pour a bucket of cold water all over me.
someone pls wake me up.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

emotional sobriety

we either make ourselves miserable,
or we make ourselves stronger.
the amount of work is the same.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

tt dream feel so surreal.
woke up realizing tt reality's cruel.

i've to learnt to accept the fact that life's sucks.
shits happens. and devil exists.
end of the day. we'll be leaving this world individually in that wooden box.

promise family lotsa things.
gotta fulfill them. not gonna make them watched me tear in the middle of the night.
there's other more impt things in life.

wake up girl. forget bout it. life's sucks.

Monday, December 07, 2009

=)

unexpected things happen.
no matter what. we've gotta brave through all storms and move on with life again.
that's life. even if the worse shit happens on me.
the earthball's still rolling on.

cheng&me ended our r/s.
we've/he've choose to focus his priority on somewhere else.
career. & we choose to put down our r/s.
to fully commit on career.
desire's overwhelm heart. feelings overwhelm mind.
we're still connected though. somehow or rather.
nothing can change tt. =)

its been hard on me. tough times.
sorry i've make my parents/brother worried bout me.
i'll be the strong suiyan. ever smiling & annoying suiyan again. =)

& all the friends who've been there for me.
i deeply appreciates it.
my bestie whom i called crying on over the phone with. thanks angeh.
my girls who asked me out. to assure me tt they're still there.
lifting me up when im down. thanks pek. filda. love u girls.
my jy who's always there to bring me out to chill.
and make me realize there's life out there. hahaa.
and bing. always there. consulting me like a doctor. thank you. =)

i've move on guys.
suiyan jiayou suiyan. aja aja fighting!

Monday, November 02, 2009

报告式的亲密电话

刚开完会,他就急忙打电话给爱人。
放下电话之后,他的脸色似乎不那么兴奋。
大家都在羡慕他和爱人的联系如此紧密,每天都有说不完的话题,但他其实很无奈。

私低下我才知道,他每天的“亲密电话”原来是“报告式的对话”,
并不是出自于“想打电话给她,想听到她的声音”,而是因为“不打,她会不开心”。

你也觉得无奈对不对?
两个人相爱,走到这样的处境,有点呼吸困难。
连在相爱当中的自己也会纳闷,为什么会越来越被动地去讨好对方?
不想做,可是为了维系双方的感情,还是得做。

两只刺猬相爱着住一起。很亲密的时候,它们紧紧相依,
但彼此身上的刺却深深地刺痛了对方,因此不得不保持适当的距离。

距离也是一种美

爱人之间也是如此。适当的空间,给了对方足够的自由;
适当的距离,反而保证有了一定程度的安全感。

透不过气的束缚和思想中种种臆测都让爱受伤的不良因素。
适当的距离合空间则最能大大减少这些伤害。如此,爱才牢固。

两颗心之间最好的距离,就好像一条橡皮筋。
捆绑得太紧,迟早失去弹性,落个断掉的下场。
拉得太远,橡皮承受不了压力,也会断。

把彼此的距离适当地拉开一会儿,反弹回来造就出来的火花,
就好像不和对方在一起时,特别想念对方的心情。
相处的距离有伸有缩,即给了对方一定的空间,又可以很紧密地连在一起。